I just ate a fried egg, not because it's some sort of folk-remedy for headaches but because I had it in the house and thought that perhaps I hadn't had enough to eat yet today and that was contributing to it;
I've been drinking water like a madwoman thinking maybe dehydration was causing it but to no avail;
maybe it's the windiness today, or perhaps something I'm allergic to is pollinating. Whatever it is, I haven't gotten any diss work done today despite being drastically, frighteningly behind. And headaches make me incredibly grumpy and full of hatred for the stupidity of all human beings.
Supreme irritability is just not the right mindset in which to consider the plight of various fictional characters.
Or else my final chapter might be re-titled "That Silly Bitch Had It Coming!" (taken from a larger work, You All Suck and This Entire Project is A Worthless Waste of Time.)
My cat is naked. More so than usual; he was rolling around on a catnip toy and got his collar stuck on a carpet loop. It was a breakaway collar, so by the time I looked up to wonder why he was writhing around like that, it broke. Now I have to go buy another collar for the little fucker. Gah!
I had a collar for Timido, the Other Cat, but he never got used to it; I had to take it off. He would jump or move and suddenly notice the weight of the name tag and absolutely freak out --- wild wide eyes, all the hair standing on end, he'd rush around the living room frantically trying to claw it off his neck.
So as long as Timido hides rather than runs away everything should be fine. It's his favorite hobby so I think this will work out.
Teaching is looking up so it might just suck instead of being completely unbearable. I'm not sure though; is it normal for soc-sci instructors to read large passages from the textbook and summarize the main points via powerpoint? This method seems so useless; I kinda agree with the students ---- why do the reading and come to lecture if it's the same thing? (Oh, I'm back in a different department, by the way.)
There's also all sorts of other crazy shit going down here that is making me incredibly depressed. Think huge fights over whether something we do is work or not, with some people so desperate to do it and so in love with it that they are fighting to do it anyway, and I'm not sure whether them doing it for free would make TAships and adjuncting more available or less available for the rest of us next year.
I must confess I'm starting to feel really shitty about the notion of adjuncting next year while making another try for a tenure-track job as that just perpetuates the system as it is; forget the arguments about "qualifications," "competition" and the worth of tenure ---- the whole point of the job market is to make me jump at the brass ring while staying right where they want me: shoddily teaching large classes for a mere grand a pop. On the other hand, not getting any adjuncting next year will feel pretty shitty too. I don't know if that would mean I don't bother making another stab at the job market in fall but maybe.
And now for something completely different ---- go read this funny conversation. It's better if you imagine it's being spoken by the characters from Life in Hell.