with the format or preparation for the very structured community college first round interview, if I keep getting that far and promptly rejected. I just did more of those and had no better luck than earlier. Siiiiiiiiigh. I finally got in touch with the search committee for that other thing (it was the place with the weird job ad) and I have been rejected there too. I know that my little demos haven't been completely and utterly polished --- I am keeping on top of my full time teaching and grading, after all, which is a huge time commitment along with all the travel to other locations --- but maybe I am doing something wrong or offputting or I am wrongly assuming that I am an experienced enough teacher that I can just run through my usual class stuff.
Or maybe the problem is me and there is something just plain abrasive or unpalatable at the very core of my self that comes out more clearly in person than in print.
Sigh. Now I am back to the same crappy state of feeling I was in before.